blow for the day

Living in the special needs world can often feel like a roller coaster. Highs of successes, no matter how small, can be easily overshadowed by the lows of defeat. This time last summer, we were riding the highs of college acceptance, shopping for dorm room, figuring out scholarships, roommates, schedules, trying to navigate the world of the upcoming separation.

Last week, we got the packet of paperwork for admission this year, as a second year student at P.A.C.E. This is equivalent to a senior, with many privileges, and new responsibilities. Jacob is preparing to go to school and is anticipating all of these changes with delight and excitement.

This morning I got an email from the director stating that Jacob cannot return back to school until his tuition has been paid down. I have not received all the information, how much it has to be paid down, what the due date is, etc. My head is reeling. How do I raise money when I feel like I have already tapped family and friends dry. Haven't I asked enough? begged even? I am actively looking for any leads that can assist with fundraising.

I keep telling myself everything will be ok. But it feels so hopeless right this second. I'll do some research, find some answers, get some answers from P.A.C.E tomorrow, I hope.

In the meantime...what do I say to Jacob?